Saturday, January 25, 2003

    i really need to get this sorted out. its doing my head in now.

she is all i seem to think about. i had a dream last night. we went out somewhere, and she actually told me that she liked me, and that a couple of people had talked to her about it recently and told her to say something to me.

anyway, im hoping to see her tonight. if i dont, i guess it will just be a quiet night home alone with a bottle of wine and a dvd. again.

we're going to see the wonderstuff in london in a couple of weeks. a whole day and a bit in london. just me and her. wander round the shops, go to the gig, back to the hotel, then have the next day to play about in london too.

im going to HAVE to do something about this soon... i cant go on much longer without knowing either way how she feels about me.

scribbled by: wanye at 17:19

Sunday, January 12, 2003

    ok.


excuse hte pished typing. cant escape it. sorry.


i am in love with rebecca. what more can i say?

we went out together tonight. went for a curry. played guitar a bit. i messed up. we had a goood laugh.....



i love this girl. so much it hurts

i wish she had have stayed over. we could have talked some more.
or listened to nice music.


i dont care
just as much as so long she realises just how much i am in love with her.

she makes me feel good about myself. why does she have to be so distant with me? :(
i wish someone would sort us two out..


she is my best friend, and i dont want to mess anything up between us. her not being my best friend any more would *destroy me* :(


rebecca. i love you.
.

scribbled by: wanye at 02:31

Monday, January 06, 2003

    lordy.

its been one month since my last confession.
things seemed to be going really well up until saturday night.

saturday....

it was my first sellout clubnight. on the whole, it went spectacularly well. lots of people came, and all the feedback was good, all had a good time.

it was going ok for me. up till near the end.
there was one of the board lot (a newbie who we'd met a couple of times) and he spent the night clinging on to beck. i tried several time to get the message across for him to fuck off, but he just kept coming back. anyway, as i was stuck DJing for half the night, and for a good chunk of the rest of it, i was chatting to my mates/the punters in the club i couldnt keep an eye on her, he just kept at it. even nick and george tried to get rid of him. but no....

anyway, it was near the end, i was on the dancefloor, and i looked over. he moved in, and snogged her.

this threw me completely. i felt sick. it was a complete shock to me.

anyway. my head is still a bit of a mess, im not sure what to think. all i know is that if he's in my presence again, he will be very unwelcome.

the jury is still out on this one. i dont want to push anything, because she is having a family problem at the moment and is upset. i dont want to add this to the list of things she has on her mind.

anyway. more later. i have work to do...

scribbled by: wanye at 11:45